Gianni

"I describe ‘Lane Boy’ as the moment where I broke character. Saying things that weren’t necessarily artistic or beautiful, but exactly what I wanted to say and exactly what I was feeling. I broke character and became a frustrated human. For a moment. I don’t imagine needing to say things like that anymore. I remember showing that song to some people and they said, ‘I don’t think you want to say that…’ And Josh said to me, ‘Let’s say it.’"

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Mommy, daddy,
can’t you see,
how much your words are hurting me?
I think of every word you said,
at nights when I can’t seem to sleep in my bed.

Sister, brother,
don’t you hear,
I’m in my room, holding back every tear.
I don’t want you to know I’m broken,
so I’ll keep smiling and leave all the pain unspoken.

Friends, lover,
don’t you know,
there are so many things I chose not to show.
I scream, I cry,
I cut, I lie.
But most of all I wanna die.

People, society,
where is the girl I used to be?
You made me drive insane in my head,
congratulations to every one of you,
I am dead.

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